Unable to sleep at night

"Does it matter? Will he know? If I show him everything will he go?"
No matter how many times I asked the answers were always
Yes yes and no
So I tell you my life, my thoughts and secrets and I entrust you with parts of my life
i don't even trust in my own mind
and once again I ask

"Does it matter? Will he know? If I show him will he go?
Yet once again he answers yes yes and no
and as the tears start to tumble down my face
and he calmly asks me baby what's wrong
I say "Does it matter?" Because I know he won't say no
and he'll listen and he'll quiet my fears.
He'll do all the things never done before
and I know he will just never turn around
glance at me and just walk out the door
So as I start to cry and put my head on his shoulder and he says sweetheart what is it?
And I respond, "Don't you know"
You wipe away my tears and calm all my fears
you leave me weak so unable to speak
and im more safe and yet scared than I have been in years
And as the tears start to dry and he kisses my cheek
he whispers to me softly as I start to fall asleep.
"It matters a lot. I care very much and yes I know.
And with everything you tell me I'll never let you go.